drowning

the quantum model of atoms

marginal economic costs

culture of the roman empire 

drowning. 

twenty two hours of dance.

drowning. 

scattered, rare moments of control 

then pressure closing in from all sides 

and i'm under.  

this week while the population of provo freshmen were getting slathered in blue foam, dancing Friday nights away, and cheering the cougs to victory,

I was in my dorm room

staring at a laptop 

contemplating where to start. 

but then He lets me know that it was never supposed to be easy, and He's not going to take it away, but "all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good." {Doctrine & Covenants 122:7} 

everything is going to be okay.